Understanding of godI have always believed in god. He is one but perceived differently. Spirituality has meant different things to me at different times. When I was a child I associated it with prayers, saying slokams and by going to temples. I thought that by doing these, god would fulfill all my wishes. Going to temple gained more fervour during examination result time. If something went wrong I thought god was angry with me for not praying properly. As I grew up I felt that this entire ordeal was business-like. God is beyond emotions and loves everybody just like the way a mother loves all her children. So I started visiting temples for good vibrations. I didn’t specifically ask for anything, but always thanked god for this wonderful life. Spiritual practicesI started differentiating between religious and spiritual, gradually. I have very little faith in rituals, and feel that it is the intent that is important. These days I just channel all my energies and focus on this higher power. This makes me more aware of my physical and emotional self. Spiritual beliefs I believe that everything happens for a reason and learning, and the higher intelligence is aware of everything that we need in our life. But that has not stopped me from going to temples. As my ishta devata is Shiva, I love going to Thiruvannamalai and the Shiva-Vishnu temple in Kilpauk. It’s just that I am able to experience the same vibrations just by channelling myself. Again I don’t know if this is a current phase or if it is going to be my belief system for life. That, I have to discover in this journey called spirituality. I am aware of another level called anbe sivam, which believes that god is in everything, good or bad, so just love everyone the same. When you can do this you are god — Aham Brahmasmi. This requires a great deal of evolvement, which I feel currently do not have. But yes, I would like to reach this state. (Sangeeta Rajeswaran is a playback singer)
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